Sunday, February 20, 2011

Lonely

When all is said in done, when the day fades and the night calls
There are stars that stand out in darkness and shine
When stillness embarks on noise and the mess of sound leaves silence
At least there is no chaos of waves left in the air to fuck with us
But then again, at the end, what does anything mean?
The memories we create that stand in our minds eventually fall
And the songs that we sing, we all eventually forget the words.
So, why, do we try so hard to remember, to recall?
When the sunset, and the sun rises, we just start fresh
The light washes everything away
So what of This Day?
What of yesterday and tomorrow, and the week after that?
Is there really anything for us here?
Is there really anyone for us here?
Silence.

We’re all alone.
At the end of the day
Aren’t we?


How many questions we leave unanswered
How many mistakes we make and leave uncorrected
Why? Why would we try?
For anything, that in the end is nothing?

Silly stars, there to throw us off
We run for a finish line that isn’t there
We speed for a crash we can’t avoid, and break for nothing
If we lived everyday for something, what could that something even be?
Why would that even exist?
But if it did…
What would it be at the end of the day?
Nothing?
Or stars?

Do I get to be a star?
Is that even possible?
Is that even a reason to run or drive or exist?

You’re right.
I’ll never know.

Because like everyone else,
I am nothing
I am fucked
Shafted by a world of lies that set us up to fail
We are built so we will fall
We wake so we can sleep through life

Because we are nothing
Dust under a mat, swept up and hidden
We are each our own magnets dropped under the fridge
We are all lost
We are all forgotten
We are neglected, and mistreated, and hated

Because we are nothing
We spend our lives achieving nothing
We shoot for the stars and shoot for the moon
But we never leave the ground
We’re stuck in lives we don’t want to live
Running for nothing
Or running for someone
We put our hopes in things that will disappoint and disappear.
And where does that leave us?

In silence.
Alone?

When all is said in done, we look up at the stars
In darkness we stare, and our hearts call for something more
Our eyes search for what we’ll never find
But we all look back down to the ground
We fumble around
And we realize.
Everything is nothing when the sunsets.
The world resets. 

We begin anew.
I look at the stars and then I look at you.

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  2. This is totally awesome. I feel lonely too. It is not that I don't believe that God is with me, I do. Or at least I think I do. But, what are we without a real connection to someone here on earth. I have yet to figure all this out. Thanks for sharing this...

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